NIRVA
umar ka hisab aajtak koi
na samjha hai, na koi samjega. kuch chize aisi hai joh koi kam umar meh samaj
jaata hai aur koi jyada umar meh. lekin ek baat pakki hai sikhta jaroor hai,
kyuki yeh zindagi ka kadam uska hai aur imhtehaan bhi..
chaliyeh aaj
kuch kahani aisi hai, joh sunne meh awkard lage, public meh shayad isko naa
mane, magar reality kuch aisi hai..
Ek larka tha uska naam
vasu tha.. woh hamesha sabko hasata tha, aur agar kisiko mood off hota toh usko
manata bhi wohi tha.. kuch baatein aisi huyi woh din tha Aug 6 2019,
ka din na jaane kishmaat ki lakir kaha seh mili na jaane who azoobi andaz kaha
seh aayi, thi ek larki Anjani si, tha uska naam Nirjha, sach batau woh larki
usseh 1 saal bari thi. Baat aisi huyi, ki ush din woh fb chala
raha tha, achanak uski naazar ek profile peh pari, naam tha nirjha. Id check
kiya, vasu ko pasand aaya, bhej diya friend request. Pata chala ki woh accept
bhi kaar li. Aur msg bhi kaarti hai hii. Kaise ho?. Vasu sochne meh lag gya hua kya, shyd woh useh
pechanti hai, ya shyd kuch aur. Vasu
neh baatein karna suru kiya, nirjha neh bhi uska saath diya baatein karne
meh.. pata chala baad meh ki
nirjha usko pechaanti thi bachpaaan seh magr yeh larka nhi pechaan ta tha.
Kuch azkaal anhoni
si hone lagi hai, mano baatein jaroorat si hone lagi hai, kuch chize aisi hai
joh ilam keh bahar hai aur kuch chize aisi hai, joh halatao keh bahar hai,
magar fark bs ish baat ka hai ki aankhein do jagah khuli hai, ek sapno meh
dusra khyaalo meh…
Nirjha ko baatein karna
pasand tha vasu seh, yah yuh kahu baatein jaroori baan gayi, vasu shyd pasand
krta tha nirjha ko, yeh baat woh janti thi, magr aajtak vasu neh kbhi kaha nhi..
kyuki useh bas nirjha seh baatein krni thi, ghumna tha, butterscotch icecream
khaana tha. Vasu ko bht pasnd hai butterscotch ice cream.
Nirjha ko pasnd tha
vassu ki baatein magr ushe pasnd nhi tha relationship ka dhaage, vasu neh samjhya ya yuh kahu ushe manaya ki
kuch rishte aise bhi hote hai, joh bina naam ka ho, kyuki woh rishte tutte nhi
hai. Na gaam hai khone ka na gaam hai joorne ka.. nirjha maan gayi uski baat..
Alag si lagti hai woh paal
, alag si lagti hai woh zobaani, aankho ki lehre aasamno ki gazal, sabdo ka
bhed hai, ya sabdo ka zubaani...
Kuch dino keh baad baatein achi chal rahi thi, ya yuh kahu dono meh ek dusre
keh understanding bht hi acha tha. Na kuch bolke nirjha sabkuch samjh jaati, ky chahta hai bolna
vasu. Vasu hamsha ek chiz bolta….
Nirjha….. nirjha…. woh bolti ky? Kuch sec ka pause leta
aur kehta kuch nhi bas yuhi.. nirjha ko pasand tha shyd. Aur shyd
naaa bhi.. kbhi kbhi to aisa bhi hota ki vasu pukarta nirjha toh woh gusse
seh bolti haaa pata hai kuch nhi bologe, bs aywi bulate ho.. vasu ko nirjha ko tang karna pasand tha. Pata
nhi kyu, shyd baatein krni paasnd thi..kbhi kbhi toh vasu astrologer baan
jata.. nirjha ka nakshtra
dekhne lagta, kbhi toh vasu gussa bhi hota ki subah seh kaha rehti hai.. na koi
call na koi msg, magar woh janta tha ki
chahe kitni bhi deri ho reply degi.. ky karta yr bechaara bs umid meh rehta ki
aab ayga msg, shyd ab bajega ghanti…
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I wish she could know
What I'm too scared to
show.
I wish she could see
Just how much she means to me.
I wish she could tell
That I know him so well.
I wish she could feel
My caring that is real.
I wish she could hear
The things that I fear
About her never knowing
That my caring for her is growing.
Aab baatein kuch aur
si hone lagi hai. Naa jane kyu unki baatein ph. Peh hone lagi hai, mano ki jab
bhi niklati hai woh ghar seh uska nazar ph. Ki tarf hone lagta hai, ki shyd aab
ayga msg ya call, sach batau kbhi kbhi aata bhi hai. Woh larka sabkuch chor keh phele usesh
baatein karta hai, pata nhi kyu, shyd, caring badh gayi ho, ya shyd umid badh
gayi ho..nirjha jab bhi ofc seh
nikalti phela call usko ghumati ya ofc jaati bhi akhri call usko ghumati..woh sab kuch share karti useh, uski past, uski
present aur shyd future bhi, ky karni hai useh.. EVERYTHING!. Aisa hota hai ki ghanto baat hone lagi ph.
Peh, aisa bhi hua ofc meh thi, fir bhi sab seh chup keh baat krti thi. Vasu bht
khush tha, shyd nirjha bhi khush thi..
Duniya to mutthi mein bhaar
li, Zindagi haath se nikal gayi. Kya-kya tha magar, Haay
re! yeh larki humari Kismat badal gayi
8 sept, 2019..Azib si
baatein huyi aaj, pata nhi nirjha ko kish baat ka bura laga, na samj saka woh
larka. Ph. Peh kaar rahi thi baatein, pheli baar kuch pucha vasu useh, pheli baar inkaar ki bolna, pheli baar naraj
thi, pheli baar mood thik naa kar paya ush bande neh. Pheli baar… pheli baar….ph. peh thi woh achanak seh kaat di, kehti hai
koi rishtedaar aagya, shyd
jhut keh rahi thi, nhi pata fir bhi woh banda maan liya, larka neh bht try kiya
samjhane ko. Bht imhiyaaat ki batane ko. Magr ky hua useh, bol na saki woh, uski akhri jawab thi soo jao.. bcz,, shyd
uske paas jawab nhi tha, useh batane ko..shyd jwab tha, magar suruwaat nhi kaar
payi. Koi nhi, vasu hamesha kehta
hai, kuch bhi kahi bhi, bs ek baar naam pukaro, annkho seh band hone keh deri
tak phele woh pouch jyga elam meh. ..
Haathon mei kalam aur kitaab
liye, Khaayalon ko nazam banate hue
Zindagi sulajh gayi the, Uljhe hue kaafiye
mei.
Din bitte hai, insaan
nahi, raath bitti hai, safar nahi… insaan ki khamoshi bht kuch kehti hai,
Shyd insaano ki lawazo seh jyada…. Waqt kisi keh liye nahi rukta hai,
nahi rehta hai kisiki narazgi kyuki waqt keh saath sab badalta hai, narajgi bhi
aur mood swing bhi..
10 sept,2019 din yaad hame, kya kahu mai ish din ko, shyd kismaat maanu vasu
keh liye, ya ek naya parawao Rishta samjhe keh liye….
Nirjha neh call kiya tha
vasu ko, shyd usseh baat krni thi…. Magar woh larka gya tha nahane keh liye,
nhi utha paya ph… nirjha ko pata tha
ki shyd woh ph. Keh paas nhi hai, aur waps karega ph, jab bhi woh free
hoga. Aur hua bhi wohi, vasu neh jab naha keh
aaya, call back kiya nirjha ko,
vasu keh naam seh call aate hi nirjha ka chehra khil gya…
kuch waqt hai unke liye
joh waqt ki kadar karte hai, jab waqt ki kadar karne lage tab halaat neh jawab
deh diya.
Surrounding meh itna noise tha ki kuch sunaiyi
nhi deh raha tha. Call kaat keh wapas call kiya… phir bhi nhi, bande neh umid
nhi chori, magar halaat neh
uska saath nhi diya, call
kaat di, yeh bolke ghr pouch keh text krungi..
Ikraar Se
Intezaar Hota Hai, Besabri Se Bekaraar Hota Hai, Jab Chehra Ho Jaye Isme
Shaamil, Tab Yaarana Fanaa Hota Hai.
Waqt ki lamhe badhti
gayi, khamoshi chadhti gayi.. phone peh naa baat hua toh kya hua yaaro ,
whatsapp ki ghanti bajti gayi.
Nirjha ko shyd bura laga ki, yeh larka hamse baat krne keh liye haar din wait
krta hai, magr baat nhi ho paati.. nirjha neh vasu ko msg kiya aur kaha sry
kuch din seh busy thi isliye nhi hua baat. vasu hamse yehi kehta hai koi nhi,
kya hua agr kuch din baat nhi hua toh, aaj toh baat ho rahi hai na, wohi kaafi
hai uske liye, yehi baat nirjha ko
bht pasand hai ki bande ko insecurity nahi hai, kisi bhi chiz ki bhi.. vasu puchta hai ky kar rahi ho? Nirjha kehti
hai dikha dungi.. vasu sochta hai kya dikhygi, jab ki vasu neh kuch manga hi
nahi.. bht time keh baad
whatsapp ka ghanti bajti hai, text aata hai nirjha send you a photo. Vasu
turant kholta hai, aur dekhta hai ek khubsurat sa drawing. Vasu appreciated karta hai, hmesha aaj bhi
kiya ushneh. jyada baatein huyi
nahi ush din magar jitni baatein huyi thi woh kaafi hai vasu keh liye, atlst
khush toh hai kahi seh toh suruwaat toh hua.
Nazaren
Bichaye Baithe Hai Raste Main
Yaar Ke,
Kaha Dil Ne Dekh Kar Jo
Jalwe-Husn-E-Yaar
Ke, Laya Hai Iss Pari
Ko Kaun
Aasaman Se Utar Ke.
waqt aisi chiz hai joh imtehtaan seh badh keh hai, bewajah aisi chiz hai joh
waqt seh baadh keh hai… 11 sept,2019 din ki badhti lamhe tham si gayi, ankho ki
nazre jhukti gayi, unki chehre aur khubsurat hone lagi as vasu neh pic manga
tha pichle din ko, magr aagle din dp daal di… vasu kehta hai, yaar pic maange the usseh magr who khud chali
aagayi.. baatao ki chahat badhti
gayi, hosle chalte gayi maan li aapni haar ushneh” lo jeet gaye ho tum hamse, hum haar gaye ish dil seh”, … vasu ko yeh gaana bht paasand aaya, daal diya status peh, woh puchti hai yeh gaana kyu?? Vasu haaas
keh smile deh keh kehta hai “jeeta nhi hu kabhi mai, jeetunga jaroor, hara kabhi nhi hu mai,
magar harunga jaroor”… baatein hone lagi, din bitte gaye, waqt chalti gayi… mrng ka msgs
aane laga, acha lagta hai vasu ko ki koi useh itna care kare, ya fir yaad kare,
shyd nirjha ko bhi pasand hai baat karna vasu seh. Haar din baat hoti hai un
dono ki aab shyd kuch jyada baat hone lagi hai.. dil ki baatei ko kahi jaa sakti hai… magr unh
aasu ki nahi joh kabhi aankho seh gire nhi..
Sapno ki duniya mein hum khote
gaye, Hosh mein the fir bhi madhosh hote gaye, Jane kya jadoo tha us ajnabi
chahere mein, Khud ko bahut roka fir bhi uske hote gaye..
Kuch yaaddein alfazo keh
sahare jeeti hai, kuch yaadein saaso keh sahare jeeti hai, rishte toh unke
tiqteh hai, jinke dil keh nazro seh ek dusre ka chehra dikhta hai.
Baatein kuch ish tarah
si thi. Halatao neh kaha vasu ko nah ho payga tumse, useh mana ne meh…magar
haar mane keh halat meh bilkul nhi tha.. ……
Sab kuch sahi chal raha
tha vasu aur nirjha, keh bich magr pata nhi kabhi kbhi nirjha ka mood swing
hota tha, magar vasu chahta tha ki aisa kuch kare ki atlst uska mood thik kare.
Woh hamesha yehi chahta tha ki kbhi bhi ushe koi takleef nah ho. Woh hamesha
chahta ki nirjha atlst usko samjhe aur apna dhyaan rakhe..
Aaj fir is tanha raat mein, Intezar hai
uska, Jo kaha karta tha tumse baat, Naa karu to
neend nhi aati…..
raat ki
khamoshi badhti gayi, aankho ki khamoshi chadhti gyi, neend na aati thi ush
bande ko, na aati thi nirjha ko. Dono jaante the ki baat karni hai, magr kisi
neh suruwat nhi kiya, vasu socha ki, agr insaan hi nhi rahega toh uski galtiyaan ka
kya karenge, chand minto meh insaan guzzar jaatein, chor dete hai na aage
badhteh hai, vasu
neh kiya msg usko.. bheja paigaaam kuch baatein bolne ka.. aaya reply nirjha ka
baate ka kaatne ka.. baate kuch serious type hone laagi.. acahnak nirjha puchti hai
kon ho tum? Kyu aana chateh ho mere lyf meh? Ky karoge aake?? Tumhare liye
better yehi hai chale jao… yr
baat wohi huyi na kisiki talwar ka ghaw itna bhi takleef nhi deta, jitna uski
baatein deti hai…vasu
neh baat chor di, chup reh gya do wajah seh ek thi woh nhi chahta ki uske wajah
seh nirjha hyper nah ho, aur dusra useh baatein sunni na pare….
waqt hi
nahi raha kisi se wafa karne ka janab, had se zayda chaho to log
matlabi samjh lete hai…
aagle
din ki tik tik ki awaz badhti gyi. Vasu har waqt apna mob. Uthta chk karta ab ayga msg
ab ayga msg, paar uski haar baar ki kosish mit jaati…. Kuch haal nirjha ka bhi
waisa hi tha, check
toh woh bhi karti magr useh bhi haar ka saamna karna parta..ek din nirjha neh 24hrs ka
status daali thi, shyd uske 24 hrs naa baat krne ka, vasu neh seen kiya..
nirjha ko pata chal gya ki woh onl9 hai, magr fir bhi reply kyu nhi deh raha
hai, meri msgs ka reply kyu nhi deh raha hai. Ushne useh call kiya.. magr
vasu ph. Keh paas tha nhi, woh text ki magr vasu ka ph. Ofl9 show
kiya, woh
soch rahi hai aisa kaise ho gaya ki 5 min phele onl9 magr ushke achanak ofl9,
bandi ka curiosity jaagne laga, kar di text. Vasu aaya ph. Chk kiya. Aur reply diya. Nirjha
turant call ki……
nirjha-
kaha ho??
Vasu-
bahar..
Nirjha-
mere msgs ka reply kyu nhi deh rahe the? Call kyu nhi pick kiye?
Vasu-
kyu karu? Agr aapko dikkat hai mere seh, aap hame pasand nhi krti, toh hum nhi
chahteh ki aapko taklef deh, isliye mai chup tha.
Nirjha ko bura laga, samj gyi
ki shyd kuch jyada hi bol di… useh samaj aayi ki shyd banda acha hai, magr kisi ki aur galti ka sazza
use kyu du? Nirjha
ki words dhire dhire sudharne laagi, woh dhire dhire aur kareeb aane lagi… vasu keh..
vasu ko aaur jaane ka maan hua.. baatein karti rahi din bitta gya.. waqt chalta raha…ghari
ki suyi tik tik karke dono ki waqt badalne lagi.
kab tak aakhon main jane ka
kachra jane ka
bahan karoon lo aaj sare aam kaheta hoon
tumhe yaad kar ke rota hoon..
Waqt ki likaro ko aajtak
koi na samjha, na samaj paya hai unnh parindo neh, joh waqt ki khamoshi ko
samjh paya hai, woh aaj dafaan hai ish ek gaaz ki zameen ki darmiyaan
meh.
Baatein ansuni si achi
lagti hai, achi lagti hai in khusi ki palo ko joh jiya jaat hai apno keh beech
meh, baatein aura achi hone
lagi in dono keh bich meh, ki ek din nirjha neh video call kiya, pheli baar ,
woh dekha useh, banda pura blush kar raha tha, uski zulfein dekh kar, uski smile uski nose,
uski aakhein uff kuch aur hi lamha lag raha tha..dono blush kar rahe the.baatein bht saaari huyi, ab aisa hai ki
turant turant msgs ka reply aate hai…. Aab jab vasu puchta hai ki ky kar rahi
ho? Woh kehti hai tujhe text kar rahe hai. Vasu hamesh kehta huseh .. dnt wrry
tension na leh. Tuh chill kar, mai hoo na, sab dekh lunga..fikr na kaar, bs
nirjha ko kuch aur jaroorat nhi parti..aab aisa hai ki nirjha kuch bhi karti
sab vasu ko bol keh karti hai. Kahi jygi kya khygi sab bol keh karti hai… khushi keh waqt kash aisa hi chale..in dono
keh bich. In dono rishto keh bich. In #NiRvA keh bich..
Udaas hun par tujhse naraaz nahin, Tere Dil mai hun par tere pass
nahin, Jhooth kahun to sab kuch hai mere pass , Aur sach kahun to ek
tere siva kuch bhi Khaas nahin.
Kuch chize ansuni si hoti
hai. Kuch chize bas naam keh hote hai, joh rehti hai asal ki woh rehti teri
hridaye ki….
Ek baat hai asli kahaani
ki morr ka, ek baat hai unh palo ka joh dikhya nhi gaya hai, mgr unmeh saansein
dalni baki hai..vasu neh ek chiz chupaya tha, ki woh hamesha inh palo ko aapni
ankho keh saamne chupaya rakhta tha, yani woh har ek lamha joh nirjha seh
bitaya hua hai woh kagazo ki panno meh simaat keh chupaya rakhta tha, haar din
apni diary ka panna palat ta aur unh palon ko khubsurti seh kahani keh roop meh
simtaya karta tha.. ek din aisa hua ki unke rishte ek ajib si morr
ayi, dhundli si hawayein, dhundla sa paal chaa gaya. baatein karte karte ek
ajib si baat uthi dono meh kuch anbaan huyi, shyd kuch galat keh di nirjha,
magr shyd woh samjhi nhi... vasu subah seh chup tha, baatein sahi seh keh nhi
raha tha... ek hota hai na.. joh banda hamesha sabko hasata hai, hmesha tang
karta hai, achi achi baatein krta hai. agr woh chup rahe toh lagta hai, kuch
toh garbaar hai. nirjha puchti hai vasu
seh "tumhe kuch hua hai?" vasu kehta hai hame kya hoga? woh kehti hai
nhi.. yuhi tybaait thik hai?, vasu muskurake kehta hai hmm.. nirjha ko itna
samj aagya ki uska mood off hai.. woh janti thi reason magr boli nhi.. puchti
hai woh thora thora chnge chnge lag rahe ho! vasu puchta hia aisa kyu lag raha
hai? woh bolti nhi. bs yuhi... tabhi ph. ki ghanti bajti hai.....
tring...........tring...............
nirjha- bolo ky hua hai??
vasu- ky
hoga mujhe?
nirjha-
nhi subaah seh baat nhi kar rahe ho!
vasu- bs
tybaat thik nhi hai.. acha nhi lag raha hai.
nirjha-ghar chale jao. shyd thik ho jau.
vasu-
hmmmmmmm.
nirjha- ky
hua hai tumhe bolo?
vasu-
kabhi kabhi aisa lagata hai shyd mai aapko tang karta hu. shyd aap mere me
interest nhi hai, shyd meri feelings aapko bandh keh rakh rahi hai. mai nhi
chahta humari feelings aapko bandh keh rakhe. samj nhi araha hai. sahi kar rahe
ya galat pata nahi.
nirjha-
hmmm. subah ph. krnge tab batynge.. or time mila to batynge.
vasu- hmmmmmmmmmmm.
call
ended.............
Mai Ise Chahta Tou Hun
Magar Ehtram-e-Izhaar Nahi Kar Sakta
Mai Tere Is jahan Ko
Mohabbat Ka Naam De Kar Aludah Nahi Kar Sakta
Jitna Bhi Kamiyab Ho Jaye
Ab Murshid Ka Mukabla Tou Nahi Kar Sakta
Ali Ko Janne K Lie Bhi Ali Chahiye
Ab Har Shaks Bhi Tou Ali Ali Nahi Kar Sakta
Mai Yazeed Ka Sath De Kar
Aal-Muhammad Se Daga Nahi Kar Sakta
vasu sochta hai kash nirjha ek baar bolti hug karna hai... pura pigaal jata ..
tabhi
vasu ko text aata hai. nirjha ka.. kehti hai.. dekho manti hu tum mere
care karte ho, manti hu sabse jyada khush tum mujhko rakh sakte ho, manti hu
tum bht ache ho. magr sach yeh hai, apni fantasy seh niklo, joh tum keh rahe ho
sab sach hai. mgr sab nhi.. vasu kehta hai manta hu muhkil hai, magr namumkin nhi.
kyu soch rahi ho itna, joh acha hai useh chalne do.. waqt neh apko milaya, yeh
bhi hum waqt keh upar chorte hai, kaha tak jaati hai. nirjha chup ho gyi.. sant
si. kehti hai thik hai, kabhi kabhi nirjha sochti hai banda sahi bolta hai,
magr kbhi kbhi yeh sochti ky sach bol raha hai... magr ky kare dono ki
feelings same jagah thi.. nirjha ko samaj aagaya ki aab shyd useh mana na
parega, kyuki woh vasu seh durr nhi reh sakti... nirjha neh kuch kuch mood turn
on karne ka videos bhejha just like romantic videos or yuh kahu, cute sa love
songs.... vasu haar video dekhta raha, woh socha naraj hi rahega, mgr aanth meh
pigal hi gya...jeet gyi nirjha... vasu kehta hai tum bht saitaan ho, mood
khrp bhi krti ho malum bhi tuh hi lagati hai....
Husn Yousuf Jaisa Ho Ya Surat Bilal Jaisi,Ishq Agar
Rooh Se Ho Toh Har Roop Kamal Hota Hai..
ek din ki baat hai nirjha
neh.
Aab dekhteh hai aage kya hota hai!!
to be continued.
