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Asaan nahi hai kabbil hona... asaana nhi hai bara hona...kyuki milte hai bot saare ulfate joh nazar nhi aati magr aisaaas hoti hai..
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suruwat karte hai.... bht dino seh kuch bolna chhateh hai magr bol nhi paaate.... loh aaaj bolte hai.. aapne lafzo keh saath..... umar 13 saaal... jab pheli baar aitbaar kiya...... dekhe the boht saare sapne.... magr pura na kaar paya...... kahaini hai boht lambi.... bolne keh liye bht kuch hai.....
so suniyega.. aitbaar seh..................
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Hamesha ki tarah us din bhi Mai aur richa facebook par chat kar rahe the (maij aur richa ek dusre se pyar karte the). par aaj mai, richa se kuchh kahna chahta hai par shayad kah nahi pa raha hai …
Richa.. hey
mai: mujhe tumse kuchh bat karni hai..
Richa : kis baren mein ?
mai: kuchh important bat karni hai yar
Richa: To bolo phir
mai: (Dil ko zubaan, aankhon ko sapne mil gaye ... aashiqui mein, zindagi ko mainne mil gaye)-chup bina bolke......
mai: yar meri kuchh samajh nahi aa raha hai ki kaise kahun, par mujhe lagta hai ki ab main apni relationship mein break-up chahta hun, main apni family ke sath kahin aur shift ho raha hun. isliye main long distance relationship nahin rakhna chahta ..i m sorry richa.
Richa ne aage kuchh kahe bina log out kar diya
Main tumhe bhool jaon yeh ho nahi sakta ... aur tum mujhe bhool jao yeh main hone nahi doonga
.maine richa se yah sab kahkar bahut bura lag raha tha. mai bhi richa se utna hi pyar karta tha jitna richa usse. mai puri raat vo thik se so bhi nahi paya aur na hi richa us rat thik se so payi. shayad isliye hi richa agle din school bhi nahi aayi thi..
Agle din bhi Richa school nahin gayi. Vo der tak soti rahi. Jab vo finally uthi to usne break fast nahin khaya aur na hi school gayi. Usne apne kisi bhi friend ke na to phone ka jawaab diya na hi SMS ka. Bahut der tak vo apne bed pe baithi hui saamne ki deewar ko dekhati rahi. Uske dimag mein vo sare lamhe ghoom rahe the jo usne mere sath bitaye the. Aakhir uski rulai chhoot padi aur vo bahut der tak roti rahi.
Next day vo school gayi aur seedha sabse aage vali seat par baith gayi jabki roz vo mere sath peechhe vali seat par baith karti thi. mai roz ki tarah apni peechhe vali seat par hi baitha tha. Din mein kai bar humari ki nigahein mili par humari najar chura rahe the. Donon mein koi bat bhi nahin hui.
Next day bhi aisa hi hua. Use agle din bhi aur fir kai dinon tak yahi silsila chalta rahaa.
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mai abhi bhi richa se pyar karta tha. mere liye bhi ek ek din bina Richa se bat kiye gujaarna mushkil ho raha tha. Aakhir ek din maine sham ko Richa ka number dial kiya. Jaise hi Richa ne phone uthaya mai ne kaha – “Richa I am sorry. Main tumhare bina nahin rah sakta. Main apne parents se kah ke vapas tumhare ghar ke pas koi karma le lunga ya fir hostel mein rah lunga. I am sorry Richa, please mujhe maaf kar do. I love you.” Ye sunte hi Richa khushi ke mare ro padi. Rote rote usne kaha, main bhi bahut pyar karti hun tumse avash, I love you and cannot live without you.”
........Ek awaaz hai joh mere kano mein goonjti rehti hai ... ek chehra hai joh meri aankhon ke samne baar baar aa jata hai ... mere dil ka sukoon thi woh
.......Bas uske agle hi din mai ne apne parents ko convince kar liya aur apna saman le kar hostel mein rahne ke liye chal diya. Vo itna khush tha ki jaise aasman pe ud raha ho. Richa se milne ke khayal mein uski car ki speed badhti ja rahi thi. Achanak samne se ek aur car aayi aur maine ne jaise hi car ko turn karna chaha , speed ki vajah se car out of control ho gayi aur ek do teen paltiyan kha kar sadak se neeche khai mein ja giri. maine socha, bas, that’s it, I am going to die. Aur uski najar ke samne Richa ka chehra tair gaya.
Tumhare ishq se bani hoon main ... pehle zinda thi ... ab jee rahi hoon main
Jab meri ki aankh khuli to usne dekha ki vo ek aspataal mein hai. Richa uske sirhaane baithi hui thi. mera hosh mein aaya dekh kar Richa ke munh se nikla – avash, I love you. Tum mujhe chhod kar nahin ja sakte. maine ne dheere se Richa ka hath pakda aur kaha ki main kahin nahin ja sakta tumhare bina. Ye kah kar fir vo behosh ho gaya.
Lekin jo bat mujhe ko nahin pata thi ki accident mein uski ek leg doctors ko katni padi thi uski jan bachane ke liye kyunki usmein infection ho gaya tha.
Agle din jab meri aankh khuli to kuchh der tak Richa se batein ki. mai Richa se bat karke bahut khush tha. Tabhi meri najar apne pairon ki taraf gai aur meri cheekh nikal gai. Usne dekha ki mera ek pair ghutne se neeche kata hua hai. Dard aur dukh ki vajah se mai fir behosh ho gaya.
Richa ne is beech usse milne aana chhod diya. mujhe ko bahut dukh hua. mujhe laga ki shayad ab Richa mujhseh pyaar nahin karti kyunki mai ek apahij ban chukka tha aur Richa apni baki jindagi ek apahij ke sath nahin gujarna chahti hogi.
mujhe dukh to bahut hua lekin dheere dheere mai apne is dukh aur apni halat ko samajh gaya aur maine apne haalaat se samjhauta kar liya.
Main aaj bhi usse utni hi mohabbat karta hoon ... aur is liye nahi ki koi aur nahi mili ... par is liye ki usse mohabbat karne se fursat hi nahi milti
Kareeb do mahine bad mai apne parents ke sath hospital se baahar aaya. mere hathon mein baisakhiyan thi aur mai bade dhire dhire kadmon se chal kar baahar aaya.
Baahar aakar mai joh dekha usse meri aankhon se aansuon ki barish bah nikli.
Saamne Richa haath mein fulon ka guldasta aur ek kagaj liye khadi thi jispe likha tha – avash, agar tum mujhe apni jindagi mein tumhara sahara banne ka mauka do to ye meri jindagi ki sabse badi khushi hogi.
mere parents ki aankhon mein bhi pani bhar aaya
Duniya mein kitni hai nafratein ... phir bhi dilon mein hai chahatein ... mar bhi jaaye pyar waale ... mitt bhi jaaye yaar waale ... zinda rehti unki mohabbatein
pyaar ishe nhi kehteh joh dikha jaye... pyarr woh hai joh mehsoos kiya jaye........
khud ka story nahi hai.. magr..joh bhi kaha dil seh kaha...shyd aapko story aache laga ki nhi. pata nahi.... aagr aacha lage toh plzzz follow kijiyega..... like kijiye ga.. aur yeh blog share kijiyega....
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